•dreams•

"Dreams are today's answers to tomorrow's questions. " ~Edgar Cayce




Last night I had an incredibly powerful dream. It felt so real as if I was actually "in" it. I felt such strong emotions during it and it felt so incredible to get the things I needed to say off my chest. Dreams have a strong way about them and can be so truly amazing (when I can actually remember them) :)


Stephanie (my best friend for the past 10 years) and I were talking. Our relationship has been somewhat estranged since she started dating her last boyfriend. Even though we talk here and there its not anywhere like it used to be. Maybe its because of her or maybe its because he doesn't like her talking to me. Who knows. Well anyways, we were talking about how hurtful it can be when our significant other says mean things during an argument and how it makes us feel. Sometimes things can get so heated she would say that it would make her feel "less of a person". How she would feel so bad about herself because of what he would say. She didn't know what she was living for. Why she was even living or what her purpose in life was. This made me so sad to hear. She is such a beautiful person. Anyone that meets her instantly loves her because of how kind she is, how funny she can be, how big her heart is and how cute that southern draw she has is :) I have never quite had a friendship like I have had with her. I told her that I have on occasion felt the same way. I have felt so low. So sad. So full of despair. These times are few and far between for me now but we all have our days that feel like that. Its life. I told her that when I did feel this way and couldn't understand how to possibly fix it I would hear and feel something that would change my outlook quite immediately. That would be to hear Gabriela's sweet voice telling me that "I love you mama" . I would feel her touch. What an amazing blessing that is. The best medicine I could of ever been prescribed. She is the meaning to life. She is what I live for. She is what life is ALL about.

I know this was just a dream but it felt so powerful to share because its true. When life gets tough I know that God has blessed me with more than I could ever imagined in my life. So instead of focusing on the things in my life that I DON'T have(which can be so easy to do) ... I decide to look at all the things I DO have. God has blessed me with so many blessings so far in my life and the best one is that girl that can ALWAYS manage to put a smile on my face and warm my heart just a little more.Its hard some days to remember what life was like before she came along. But since she has life has had more meaning, more joy, more laughter. Through it all.. the good and bad.. Life is so amazing.