If you think I'm talking about you.. I probably am :)

Despite some people thinking or rather ASSUMING that I think of my life as "perfect". I ask you this. What is perfect? Who is perfect? No one that I know is other than God.I know I am far from perfect but I choose to be as positive as I possibly can as I walk through this life(Yes, I like everyone else have my crappy days) Really through, life is all about how you look at things. If I sat there and whined about this and whined about that no crap I would hate my life and be miserable. And trust me it would be easy to do given some of the things we are going through (John not having a job yet, not knowing whats next in life or where we're heading). But I don't. I used to say everything negative, to myself, about myself and I totally believed it. One day I switched it to only positive talk and WOW what a difference its made!!
Remember its a CHOICE. You might wanna try it too :)

My little family isn't perfect by any imagination but our imperfections are what make us HUMAN. We are doing the best we can in this life,John and I working through trying to be the best husband & wife and parents that we can be & no one can come between that. God comes first in our family and that gets us through the unknowns and gives us that confidence to keep pushin' through!

So I recommend before you go passing judgment on what you think you know just try to always remember that we're all doing the best we can(maybe not how you would handle it but its not YOUR life.. worry about your own) and remember everyone is fighting their own battles.

Oh yeah, Reminds of my favorite quote by Bob Marley "Who are you to judge the life I live? I know I'm not perfect and I don't live to be. But, before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean.”


Whew, okay I'm done now.

Summer

This has been an awesome summer for us. We've been able to spend days at pool, afternoons at the beach, or spending some time in the Carolinas with our families and friends.SO many priceless memories & Ohhhh So much fun!!! ;) Its the first July that John and I have been able to spend together since 2005.(Thank you Army!) So we are enjoying every second we have together(well a good majority of the time) :)
Life is good.

Neglecting on My Blogging Duties. Again.

Well, here I am again. A month after my last posting. Its definitely been a while. I've missed it. To me its an incredible way to almost your intimate side because your everyday is what your writing about: your marriage, your kid(s), your goals or whatever and everyone can see that side of you. For me, I love writing because I enjoy going back later in time and re-reading what I wrote and see how much I've grown since I wrote that.
When I first got into writing in a journal(as an adult) John and I had just broken up (again) and I was moving my life as I knew it from my comfort zone of Columbia, South Carolina-my home town to a new place in Hunters ville, North Carolina(30 min outside of Charlotte). For the first time in my life it was all about me. For the first time in my life I got to find out ALL about me and all that entailed. It was scary, overwhelming, exciting, challenging, and SUCH a growing experience for me. 'Nuff said ;) then after a small breakup apart + John growing also & joining the Army we both decided to make it work (for real this time? )and start a new life as husband and wife. Put the past behind us and I was now an Army Wife. The first year of marriage was harder than most because as most newlywed couples are getting to know each other John and I were faced with one LONG 14month deployment. With our constant prayers and positive attitudes we were reunited again and it was truly one of the best days of my life. Then after a long awaited "honeymoon" to the Bahamas in 2008 we went back to Alaska were John was stationed predeployment to find out that we were expecting our first baby. (WOW,Talk about surreal) ;) We found out we were having a girl in the Summer of 2008 and on September 17, 2008 Gabriela Eden graced us with her presence and we have never been the same. With one additional unexpected deployment thrown in the mix it caught us a little "off guard" but we knew there had to be a bigger plan for us and it would soon be revealed. Finally with John returning home with us again in January 2010 and out of the Army-talk about another new chapter- in April of 2010. Its been quite the ride these past few years but we couldn't be happier. Life holds so many uncertainties but I am SO thankful God knows the plan for our family. that gives me so much comfort in knowing that. I strongly feel that through it all I am exactly where I need to be. I have been where I have for a reason but in the end I need to appreciate each moment day by day. I can't wait to see whats in store for us. I am so thankful that this was the life that was chosen for me. No, it definitely hasn't been easy. I've experienced SO much in the past 27 years but I wouldn't change a thing. I am looking forward to going back to school again to do massage therapy and see where that takes us. It is so much fun being a wife to John and a mama to Gabriela & I wouldn't have it ANY other way. So thankful for everyone and everything in my life. I am 1 Lucky Lady!!!!